Obesity? GONE!

So again I’ve fallen off with blogging. Last update was on December 1st!

Anthony and I are still doing WW together (it’ll be a year in about a month) and chuggin’ along.

I have some awesome news to share which is probably why I’m so inclined to blog today…

*drumroll*

As of today, I am down 30.2 lbs!!!!
I’ve gone from 193 lbs to 163 lbs in about 11 months on MY own terms without sacrificing everything I love!

And the best news of all? I am officially NOT OBESE ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Starting BMI at 193 lbs? 34.2 (NOTE: A score of 30+ is obese for me)
Current BMI at 163 lbs? 28.9 (NOTE: A score between 25-29.9 is overweight for me)
Source: BMI Calculator on Mayo Clinic

Getting down below 165 is great…But conquering obesity? A HUGE deal (no pun intended there)!  Once I hit 140, I will be in the normal range for my height.  My current goal right now with WW is 135 but I’m thinking that it may go a lower as time goes on.  We’ll see!

I know that I never “looked” obese to many of you readers. Any time I’d tell someone my weight and/or mention that I was technically considered obese, I heard a lot of “You do NOT look like your weight!” and “You’re not obese!!” comments. Granted, that’s nice to hear but it didn’t change the facts…That I WAS 193 lbs and WAS obese.

Damn even I was shocked when I discovered I was obese!  I remember doing the BMI test and denying it.  “No…This can’t be right…I’m chubby…I’m big…but I’m NOT OBESE!”

When I shared my 2 pieces of awesome news with my WW crew this morning, I got 2 huge rounds of applause.  It was a cool feeling!  I love that I can share my stories and struggles with an amazing group of like-minded people at WW along with my loved ones.  Can’t beat 2 awesome support groups

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Up Up Up

Went up by 1.8 lbs. This is disappointing to me because last week I went to the gym for some hard cardio after a month off and because I actually updated my blog!

I guess that’s just how it goes sometimes.

It was a tough week food-wise and I’m not shocked I gained. There was something called Pie Day at my job that Friday before weigh-in and that may have had something to do with the extra pounds. Pies, cider, cookies, cakes, and treats all around for all to share. I definitely had a little but absolutely not as much as I would have pre-WW. So even though I gained, it was still a good week just for that accomplishment.

Anybody have any tips on what to eat before and after a workout? I feel like any time I start working out, I want to eat EVERYTHING (makes sense since I’m burning calories).

PS Thanks to some awesome friends for leaving me positive comments on Facebook about my last entry! 🙂 Much appreciated!

Still Here!

I hope you all didn’t think I gave up!  I just suck at updating this blog is all. I am going to try my best to update more frequently instead of leaving it for months at a time.  It’s just tough to come home after 8+ hours on a computer at a desk for work to hop onto a computer at home for fun.

I actually just busted through a massive (and sucky) plateau that was discouraging me for the past few months.  As of right now (38 weeks in), I am down 27.2 lbs from 193.6 to 166.4.

My plateau lasted for a good 3 months.  Every week was disappointing at WW.  Up a little.  Down a little.  Up a lot.  Down a little.  And at that time, I was only down about 20 pounds.  You can’t imagine the frustration and anger I felt during those months when I saw zero progress no matter how hard I tried!!

Then one day, it ended.

I started a new job about a month ago and it really kick started my weight loss and pushed me past the plateau.  I’m moving a whole lot more (the office is giant), eating on a more “normal” schedule and eating less (but staying full) thanks to actually being busy.

The first week at the new job was tough and a bit stressful because of all the new information being thrown at me.  Because I was so overwhelmed and busy, I wasn’t eating.  I ended up losing 3 lbs after my first week!!  Sure that sounds great but since I knew WHY I lost the 3 lbs, I wasn’t too happy about it.  I figured by the next week, I’d be back to gaining.  Sure enough, I was up by 1.6 lbs the next week.  I knew why this happened (I was eating again) so I didn’t beat myself up over it.

Now that I was all “balanced” out again with a big loss and a big gain, I figured that I’d be back on my plateau of little losses and gains.

WRONG!

In the past 3 weeks, I lost 5 lbs!  I wasn’t able to lose 5 lbs in 3 MONTHS not too long ago due my plateau!

The reason this makes me so happy is because last time I did WW (back in 2007, when my starting weight was right around my current weight), I gave up after my 3 month membership ran out.  As much as I told people that I was “happy” with where I was, it was a lie.  I basically just gave up because I was starting to plateau.  And I was only plateauing for a month back then when I threw in the towel! This time it was THREE MONTHS but I pressed on.

I know I would have given up by now if I was doing this alone again.  Thanks to my wonderful and caring boyfriend Anthony (who is down 20 lbs!) for keeping me on track even when I wanted to give up.  He told me recently that I keep him from giving up, too, which made me so happy to hear.

I’m also thankful for my WW meeting buddies.  Everyone at my weekly meetings (especially Sandy, who leads the meetings) is so helpful and inspiring.  Everyone helps each other out and supports one another all the time…How cool is that?!

And finally, thanks to YOU ALL for reading and being so supportive!  I had no idea that my friends and family would read, comment and be inspired by this blog at all!  Knowing that you are here and rooting for me makes me never want to stop.

That’s about it from me for now, really.  I’ll post shorter/more fun entries soon!

Falling Off?

Up by .4 last week at weigh-in.  Even though I had a good week, the scale didn’t reflect that.  I know I shouldn’t let the number dictate whether or not my week was good but it’s tough to not be bothered by a higher number when I worked so hard to make it lower.

I’ve been finding it harder and harder to stick to plan lately.  Maybe it’s summertime doing this to me.  Cravings for ice cream (REAL effing ice cream!), booze (I’m lookin’ at you, margaritas!), and snacky foods (again, none of that baked stuff…Deep fried chips and yum yums) have been hitting me hard thanks to the weather and get-togethers. I’ve been trying to keep all of these temptations at an arm’s length but have been giving into them much more than I used to…or should be.

Motivation to work out is also at an all-time low.  Even though it feels so good to work out and I enjoy how it makes me feel, I’m still finding it tough to get back into the gym and work my fitness.

I’m nervous about my meeting on Saturday.  I doubt I’m going to see a happy number this week.  The numbers I have been seeing lately are either really small less than 1 pound losses or small gains.

I think I may have hit the dreaded plateau.

It happens to everyone while losing weight (from what I understand) and can really suck.  Sometimes they last for a few weeks.  Other times, they last for months.  Eventually, you drop, but the waiting game is the worst.  Imagine doing everything right for weeks and seeing no results.  The definition of frustrating it you ask me!

Any suggestions as to how I can get out of this funk?

Why Can’t I Be You?

I just realized that I haven’t updated this blog in 2 weeks. EEK!  I really need to get on a stricter schedule…

Last week I lost another .4, bringing my total loss to 20.8 lbs.

Even though ANY loss is a victory, I felt like I was hitting a wall with WW. Things were becoming routine.  Not boring.  Just…Blah.  Nothing really new was happening.  I was eating the same foods and knew Points values by heart for most of my meals.  It got to the point where I wasn’t writing foods down at all!  I was doing Points in my head (which is pretty normal for some people I discovered) and tallying it all up at the end of the day because I was so lazy/confident that I was doing OK.

And I was right.  I WAS doing OK and the program was STILL working but I wasn’t seeing the results I wanted anymore.

Along with that, I’ve been feeling lazy about WW lately.  I’m at the point where I look good in pics, get complimented on my appearance, and feel much more secure in my skin that I’m like, “Why bother with this shit? I’m good now!”

I brought it up at the meeting and got a firm kick in the ass from a woman who I see there all the time.  She’s like a one woman version of Statler and Waldorf from The Muppet Show.  When she speaks up at meetings, she can be a bit harsh and even a little rude, so I was scared when she volunteered to give me some advice.  She went on to joke about how “smug” I was at the last meeting when talking about lost 20 lbs and looking at photos from a few months ago to now and being amazed at the difference.  She suggested I use the photos to keep pushing me.  When I told her that the pics weren’t doing it for me anymore, she offered me even better advice.

She said that years ago at her old WW meeting place, her meeting leader brought in a funhouse mirror that makes you look thin.  Not a mirror that grossly distorts how you look (big head/out of proportion) but a mirror that actually shows you what you look like skinny.

“The problem is that we have NO clue what we look like skinny!” she said, which is why it makes it so hard to keep pushing.  But one look in that mirror and she was back on track.

Not really sure why her words of advice helped me so much this week (NOTE:  I did not buy a funhouse mirror) but it was that firm kick in the ass I needed.

Her jokingly talking about how I sounded at the last meeting made me see that there are people out there that wish they were me when it comes to weight loss (and beyond, too).  It’s insane to think that some would kill for my current figure, good habits, weekly losses, whatever!

Why was somebody basically saying,”I WISH I could lose like you!” so motivating this week?  Maybe because I never felt like anyone would want to be me.  I always felt like the person you did NOT want to be like.  Kinda like Goofus and Gallant of the Highlights magazines.  No sane person wants to be a Goofus (that dude’s a prick)…Everybody wants to be nice like Gallant (even though he’s a bit of a kiss ass).   But I was wrong.  Crazy as it is for me to think, realize (and type) but there ARE traits I have that others desire.  And that is pretty damn cool.

I used this little revelation to my advantage this week and really pushed myself to have a good week.  And I did!  I didn’t weigh in yet but I did things I never thought I’d ever be capable of.  Like resisting a slice of freshly baked apple pie that my boss brought in even though I had the Points/craving for it.  And going to the gym to do a real work out on a Sunday when I could’ve been lounging.

It took me 26 years to discover that we are all a little insecure, sometimes unsure, and always want what we can’t or don’t have.  I’m not the only one.  Care to share your feelings about this?  Would love to hear you out!

20 lbs Down!

Shockingly enough, I lost .8 lbs this week, bringing me to a total loss of 20.4 lbs!!!!

I had an awful week in general but kept it decent with the food until Thursday night.  Combine end of the week bad eating with  a time of the month that’s not fun and it usually equals a gain for me.  Not this time!

Anthony hit his 20 lb landmark today, too!  He’s down 20.8!

We’re both averaging a pound a week on the program.  I am really hoping that this trend continues because it’ll mean that I’ll be 53-55 lbs lighter by my birthday in March.  WOOOOAHHHH!

Does It Offend You, Yeah?

Not only is it the name of an awesome band, but today’s subject is an idea for a blog post I had a little while ago.

Does it offend you when people bring their own food to a function you are holding?  I’m just curious about everybody’s feelings on the topics.  I can see some people not minding but others being insulted if I were to bring my own eats.

Anthony and I bring our own main meals to certain parties because we know that most of the food being offered isn’t too WW friendly.  Not like we make ourselves a meal and eat only that or make a big stink about it (no way!).  We’ll bring Boca burgers, fat free hot dogs, and chicken burgers over to BBQs to avoid screwing our week up in one day.

I  try to compare our BYOFing to other special diets/lifestyles like veganism, vegetarianism, and the like.  When I do that, it makes bringing food to events not seem so weird or insulting.  So far, so good.

At times, I find that I get a little embarrassed about it.  Going to the grill master with a little baggie of greyish patties and whispering about how to prepare them can do that to me.  Not only can it be a little embarrassing, but it can also make me envy anyone who can/does eat whatever.  Boca burgers and fat free hot dogs really aren’t that bad, but when I see them sizzling on a grill next to behemoth cheeseburgers and Nathans foot longs…It can really make me mad.

But…I keep myself in check.  I know that it’s what I need to do to better myself.  Maybe permanently.  Maybe not.  But it must be done so that I can reach my ultimate goals.